Park Yong Ha?

Its been a while since I last wrote on this blog, lots happened since then.. don't even know where to start...

I must say it here that I have just been recently blessed with a second baby. A princess.. and we call her after her brother's name.. Christi Ann. Pregnancy was not smooth sailing, although it was much and much better than the time when I had Christian. Having said that, both pregnancies were magical to me.. and parenthood has been nothing but a great blessing...

My son, will be four years old this August, and Christi Ann, will be four months old tomorrow. How fast time flies, when you least expected it..

I've been emotionally drenched lately..getting old & sentimental.. perhaps...:)

Recently, I have just moved office, parted off with some good friends... familiar faces that I have been seeing for the last 8 1/2 years of my career life. I am now, at a new place.. although, not in the beginning of a new career..but it does feel like a different place... Having said that, I am beginning to appreciate the gift of space & peace.. and like what a dear friend told me recently.. you might be alone..but you will never be lonely...:)

A series of event took place that kept me ...thinking.. My thinking hat has been on.. for days.. giving me more wrinkles on the forehead ....unavoidable...:( But these were touching events..something... I could not make myself forget.. and make myself .. let go.....

Someone I knew recently passed away tragically, leaving behind .. a young son. A young son, who never knew who his own father was and who knew only his mother.. who is.. his world... who is.. his all. She was not a stranger.. yet.. she was not a friend... she was just someone.. I got to know... through work... and the day.. that I had a chance to bond with her.. was the last day of her life.. When I learnt about the news.. I was in shock.. .. I didn't know how to respond..

Few days later.. I learnt that a new colleague of mine had to rush home... her little home.. far far away in a distant land..her father had just passed away. I was told that he was an amazing man, who struggled through hardships to raised four of his young children after the demised of his other half at the young tender age of 30. He never remarried... ... I didn't know how to respond...

And a few days ago, I learnt that an acquintance... someone who is not a friend.. nor a stranger... is paralysed due to a recent fall. She has 3 young children.. and a husband who is 8 years younger... her physical pain was probably not as great, compares to her emotional insecurity.. I felt for her.. .. yet.. I didn't know ... how to respond...

And yesterday, I heard about Park Yong Ha. He was that charming.. second lead man, in Winter Sonota.. and was the main lead in this year's KBS drama Story of a Man. He is a talented singer and actor... who was believed to have taken his own life due to depression and his 14 years of battle with insomnia.... .. I was in shock... unable to respond...

There are people out there.. who struggles to live..struggles to make a living..and struggles to stay on with their loved ones...if we only look far enough... think.. deep enough... and listen.. to the sounds apart from our own heartbeats and murmurs... we will see .. how blessed we are..being where we are.. and being who we are..

Today.. I know how to respond...

Lord.. thank you for standing by me.. with me.. and behind me...

When I'm thirsty.. you gave me rain..

When I'm hungry.. you gave me the whole universe..

and..When I'm lonely.. you gave me hope

Thank you for all the blessings.. to me, my family..and my love ones..

Life is not complicated.. never will be.., if we learn to appreciate the half full...

instead of the half empty...

PYH... may you rest in peace...