Monday, October 23, 2006
When Romy Says, Is There Really A Michelle ?
I’m a little bit sentimental lately, thinking about life and how that I’ve gone through my last 30 years alone and together with my loved ones.
Since childhood, I’ve been a lonely child. Probably overshadowed by my elder siblings, I was rather shy to make friends and when I found a few, I became somewhat possessive and this I believed went on until I entered university. Not healthy, I know. But I guess, when a person went through what I did while growing up, it was only natural to feel this way. However, it was also due to this, some of the friendships that I have built throughout the years shattered. Probably I have high expectations, and even though I know people change as time passes by, deep down in me I was hoping none of my loved ones would ever change. Everything should remain the same, and when reality bites me, it hurts more than I could tell.
When I met my other half, I changed too. I no longer craved for friendships elsewhere, as I found it all in him. Probably a big mistake as it was not easy to rely on just one person for companionship, friendship, and other source of emotional support. But I wanted it to be that way, and I had to pay the price. It was years of cats and dogs arguments that I had to go through with him, as he needed space to grow, and I was tailing him all the while. I thought someone would be overwhelmed by such devotion, but I guess, it is true that man actually came from Mars, while I traveled from Venus. After 13 years, I probably grew smarter, but I still long for real and true friendships, those that you can see from movies, where two friends can just hang out and be “one”. Probably this is the reason why “Romy & Michelle High School Reunion” will always be my favorite movie. I would die for a bond like Romy & Michelle, something that was missing in my life.
Today, being 30, I am married, blessed with a son, and have a job. My husband, my best friend and my other half, is a year older and most of his time is spent on building his business, while most of mine is spent at home with my baby, parents, and my precious ones. And at this age, if I’m “Romy”, I still could not find my “Michelle”, but it does not really matter to me now. I learned that I could lived without such bond, and I am thankful enough to have build different kind of friendships with some of my workmates, different kind of bond as maturity paved its way through my life.
People do come with many faces and all walks of life. Its God’s blessing that I found some even though we are miles apart. This is one of the reasons, why I should probably pay tribute to “Alexander Graham Bell” (was he the creator of phones or something?). Among all these distanced treasures, one especially dear to me is Lili. Our friendship took off like roller coaster, she’s lovely and sweet and really nice. Its unfortunate that we lived miles apart, otherwise our friendships would take off straight to space. Then, I came to know her other friends, Yoke Kian, Irene… Michelle.., and I thought to myself, probably this should be a reason why I need relocate and move away from this town where I could never find a Michelle….or perhaps, there will never be a Michelle for this Romy. But at 30 years of age, do I really care as much ?
Today I may not be blessed with a Michelle, but I know I am blessed with others who are just as good as a Michelle. And as I walk through this life, being a daughter, sister, wife and now a mother, I learned that certain things may seem important on the surface, but may not be that important after all.
Since childhood, I’ve been a lonely child. Probably overshadowed by my elder siblings, I was rather shy to make friends and when I found a few, I became somewhat possessive and this I believed went on until I entered university. Not healthy, I know. But I guess, when a person went through what I did while growing up, it was only natural to feel this way. However, it was also due to this, some of the friendships that I have built throughout the years shattered. Probably I have high expectations, and even though I know people change as time passes by, deep down in me I was hoping none of my loved ones would ever change. Everything should remain the same, and when reality bites me, it hurts more than I could tell.
When I met my other half, I changed too. I no longer craved for friendships elsewhere, as I found it all in him. Probably a big mistake as it was not easy to rely on just one person for companionship, friendship, and other source of emotional support. But I wanted it to be that way, and I had to pay the price. It was years of cats and dogs arguments that I had to go through with him, as he needed space to grow, and I was tailing him all the while. I thought someone would be overwhelmed by such devotion, but I guess, it is true that man actually came from Mars, while I traveled from Venus. After 13 years, I probably grew smarter, but I still long for real and true friendships, those that you can see from movies, where two friends can just hang out and be “one”. Probably this is the reason why “Romy & Michelle High School Reunion” will always be my favorite movie. I would die for a bond like Romy & Michelle, something that was missing in my life.
Today, being 30, I am married, blessed with a son, and have a job. My husband, my best friend and my other half, is a year older and most of his time is spent on building his business, while most of mine is spent at home with my baby, parents, and my precious ones. And at this age, if I’m “Romy”, I still could not find my “Michelle”, but it does not really matter to me now. I learned that I could lived without such bond, and I am thankful enough to have build different kind of friendships with some of my workmates, different kind of bond as maturity paved its way through my life.
People do come with many faces and all walks of life. Its God’s blessing that I found some even though we are miles apart. This is one of the reasons, why I should probably pay tribute to “Alexander Graham Bell” (was he the creator of phones or something?). Among all these distanced treasures, one especially dear to me is Lili. Our friendship took off like roller coaster, she’s lovely and sweet and really nice. Its unfortunate that we lived miles apart, otherwise our friendships would take off straight to space. Then, I came to know her other friends, Yoke Kian, Irene… Michelle.., and I thought to myself, probably this should be a reason why I need relocate and move away from this town where I could never find a Michelle….or perhaps, there will never be a Michelle for this Romy. But at 30 years of age, do I really care as much ?
Today I may not be blessed with a Michelle, but I know I am blessed with others who are just as good as a Michelle. And as I walk through this life, being a daughter, sister, wife and now a mother, I learned that certain things may seem important on the surface, but may not be that important after all.
Thursday, October 19, 2006
When its really TOO GOOD ....
It’s been rather long, and there have been a lot of great stuffs on the Korean drama/movie front, not too sure which one I should start with.
I won’t forgive myself if I don’t start off with My Sassy Girl Chun Yang aka The Odyssey of Q Girl. After all, I have watched this series so many times, that I could practically hear the characters talking in my head when I sleep at night ! And folks.. I am not exaggerating !
The first time I see Han Chye Young was in Autumn Story, playing a character none of us would like to remember. And when I first saw her in Sassy Girl CY, I could hardly recognize her. She had a much younger and refreshing look.., and a fun loving character as well. As about the hero, I have not seen Jae Hee acted before. So, I was not expecting much… however his performance in SGCY was nothing but brilliant.
Probably I had too much of soapy dramas, those with not only a sad ending…., but those that were even proven to be too difficult to watch as tears keep blurring my eyesight while watching them. Sometimes, I thought to myself, hey.. I paid to be entertained.. and not vice versa. SGCY, really did made that difference, and probably why, stood out among the rest way back in 2005 when it was first released. Some critics may label this drama as a treat for the youngsters, but I feel that this drama has more to offer than what meets the eye.
The story was about Chung Yang (Han Chye Young), a popular and smart student in a little town called NamWon. Chun Yang was popular among her school mates, probably not just because of her school grades, but she was kind hearted as well. The only downfall she had to face was probably the fact that she came from a not well to do family, and therefore had to work odd jobs to finance her school bills and raising her own funds for university education. As fate puts it, she unexpectedly met up with Myong-Ryong, the leading male character played by Jae Hee. Being the son of the head police, and was raised on the silver spoon, Myong Ryong is the total opposites of Chung Yang. Twist of fate has made them know one another, and fought their way into a contractual marriage,..friendship, and without realizing it, a love affair.
I bought two drama sets for this drama, as I was not too happy with the translation effort for the first one. This probably showed how I really do like this drama. The mixture of sadness, humor and love was well blended and the OST was really good especially, the slow tracks. Well RECOMMENDED Indeed !!!!
I won’t forgive myself if I don’t start off with My Sassy Girl Chun Yang aka The Odyssey of Q Girl. After all, I have watched this series so many times, that I could practically hear the characters talking in my head when I sleep at night ! And folks.. I am not exaggerating !
The first time I see Han Chye Young was in Autumn Story, playing a character none of us would like to remember. And when I first saw her in Sassy Girl CY, I could hardly recognize her. She had a much younger and refreshing look.., and a fun loving character as well. As about the hero, I have not seen Jae Hee acted before. So, I was not expecting much… however his performance in SGCY was nothing but brilliant.
Probably I had too much of soapy dramas, those with not only a sad ending…., but those that were even proven to be too difficult to watch as tears keep blurring my eyesight while watching them. Sometimes, I thought to myself, hey.. I paid to be entertained.. and not vice versa. SGCY, really did made that difference, and probably why, stood out among the rest way back in 2005 when it was first released. Some critics may label this drama as a treat for the youngsters, but I feel that this drama has more to offer than what meets the eye.
The story was about Chung Yang (Han Chye Young), a popular and smart student in a little town called NamWon. Chun Yang was popular among her school mates, probably not just because of her school grades, but she was kind hearted as well. The only downfall she had to face was probably the fact that she came from a not well to do family, and therefore had to work odd jobs to finance her school bills and raising her own funds for university education. As fate puts it, she unexpectedly met up with Myong-Ryong, the leading male character played by Jae Hee. Being the son of the head police, and was raised on the silver spoon, Myong Ryong is the total opposites of Chung Yang. Twist of fate has made them know one another, and fought their way into a contractual marriage,..friendship, and without realizing it, a love affair.
I bought two drama sets for this drama, as I was not too happy with the translation effort for the first one. This probably showed how I really do like this drama. The mixture of sadness, humor and love was well blended and the OST was really good especially, the slow tracks. Well RECOMMENDED Indeed !!!!
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
You will be dearly missed...a friend named Wilson Sng...
How can strangers be friends ? I asked again, how can friendship builds over a period of time with nothing but total distance ?
It all started way back in year 2003, that was the year when one fateful incident has made me pick up the phone and called to complain the service of a local securities firm. A guy picked up my call, and next thing I know, we were arguing about something so silly that I could not even remember what it was about. That was the moment, I came to know a stranger by the name of Wilson Sng.
Throughout the years, we have worked together but apart. He is a brilliant broker and I am sure, a person with great charisma, and a person who values his life, family and loved ones. There was never a necessity for us to meet, and even if there was, we told ourselves.., we could always have tea some other time. Some other time, and the period lingered on until today.
Little do I know that God has His plans for Wilson. On October 9th, 2006, Wilson was called to rest by the Lord, and I was shocked to my very soul. I was sad, so sad. We won’t get a chance for our tea now…and.... there will never be a chance. It is already too late.
If eternity is where he is heading, I wish him a sacred place next to the Lord. I may not know this guy deep enough, but know him enough to feel his lost and saddened over his demise. I can still hear his voice in my little head, and I know that I will hold on to that memory for as long as live.
When you know strangers like how I do.., a friendship can build over a million miles. This ship may not have a destination now, but it will always have a place.. deep in my heart. May you rest in peace.., Wilson Sng. You will truly be missed !
It all started way back in year 2003, that was the year when one fateful incident has made me pick up the phone and called to complain the service of a local securities firm. A guy picked up my call, and next thing I know, we were arguing about something so silly that I could not even remember what it was about. That was the moment, I came to know a stranger by the name of Wilson Sng.
Throughout the years, we have worked together but apart. He is a brilliant broker and I am sure, a person with great charisma, and a person who values his life, family and loved ones. There was never a necessity for us to meet, and even if there was, we told ourselves.., we could always have tea some other time. Some other time, and the period lingered on until today.
Little do I know that God has His plans for Wilson. On October 9th, 2006, Wilson was called to rest by the Lord, and I was shocked to my very soul. I was sad, so sad. We won’t get a chance for our tea now…and.... there will never be a chance. It is already too late.
If eternity is where he is heading, I wish him a sacred place next to the Lord. I may not know this guy deep enough, but know him enough to feel his lost and saddened over his demise. I can still hear his voice in my little head, and I know that I will hold on to that memory for as long as live.
When you know strangers like how I do.., a friendship can build over a million miles. This ship may not have a destination now, but it will always have a place.. deep in my heart. May you rest in peace.., Wilson Sng. You will truly be missed !
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
Its been a while since I last updated this blog, life has taken an unexpected turn and here I am now.. opening a new chapter in my life.
After experiencing two devastating miscarriages, my third pregnancy was challenged with signs of threatened abortion. I had to bear with morning sickness that seemed to have lasted forever, bleeding.... and a whole new feeling of restlessness. I no longer feel that I owned myself, my soul, my feelings and my life. A new element is taking possession of me.. .. so strong.. and yet, an element that came from a part of me.. and grew into a part of me now.
When I entered my second trimester.. I was able to settle down with my new emotional and physical self, but only to realise that I no longer crave for things that I used to love.. and that includes my likings on the korean entertainment front. Its weird.. but its true..
After 8 months, I had put on so much weight. Started off at 60 kg.. I was then 82 kg before delivery. Worst, I was diagnosed with symptoms of diabetic and high blood pressure. Emergency Caesarean was unavoidable and at 36 weeks, baby Christian was born. Our happiness was then shattered when christian was diagnosed with collapsed lungs and had to rely on 24 hours oxygen support. He was put on drip and had to bear with hunger for the next three days, when I could actually breastfeed him.
Here I am now, and Christian is 1 1/2 month old. He has put on weight and I am witnessing the greatness of God's love from seeing him grow.. as my SON.
A new chapter has begun. A little bundle of joy... I am indeed BLESSED.....
After experiencing two devastating miscarriages, my third pregnancy was challenged with signs of threatened abortion. I had to bear with morning sickness that seemed to have lasted forever, bleeding.... and a whole new feeling of restlessness. I no longer feel that I owned myself, my soul, my feelings and my life. A new element is taking possession of me.. .. so strong.. and yet, an element that came from a part of me.. and grew into a part of me now.
When I entered my second trimester.. I was able to settle down with my new emotional and physical self, but only to realise that I no longer crave for things that I used to love.. and that includes my likings on the korean entertainment front. Its weird.. but its true..
After 8 months, I had put on so much weight. Started off at 60 kg.. I was then 82 kg before delivery. Worst, I was diagnosed with symptoms of diabetic and high blood pressure. Emergency Caesarean was unavoidable and at 36 weeks, baby Christian was born. Our happiness was then shattered when christian was diagnosed with collapsed lungs and had to rely on 24 hours oxygen support. He was put on drip and had to bear with hunger for the next three days, when I could actually breastfeed him.
Here I am now, and Christian is 1 1/2 month old. He has put on weight and I am witnessing the greatness of God's love from seeing him grow.. as my SON.
A new chapter has begun. A little bundle of joy... I am indeed BLESSED.....
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