Its been a while since I last updated this blog, life has taken an unexpected turn and here I am now.. opening a new chapter in my life.

After experiencing two devastating miscarriages, my third pregnancy was challenged with signs of threatened abortion. I had to bear with morning sickness that seemed to have lasted forever, bleeding.... and a whole new feeling of restlessness. I no longer feel that I owned myself, my soul, my feelings and my life. A new element is taking possession of me.. .. so strong.. and yet, an element that came from a part of me.. and grew into a part of me now.

When I entered my second trimester.. I was able to settle down with my new emotional and physical self, but only to realise that I no longer crave for things that I used to love.. and that includes my likings on the korean entertainment front. Its weird.. but its true..

After 8 months, I had put on so much weight. Started off at 60 kg.. I was then 82 kg before delivery. Worst, I was diagnosed with symptoms of diabetic and high blood pressure. Emergency Caesarean was unavoidable and at 36 weeks, baby Christian was born. Our happiness was then shattered when christian was diagnosed with collapsed lungs and had to rely on 24 hours oxygen support. He was put on drip and had to bear with hunger for the next three days, when I could actually breastfeed him.

Here I am now, and Christian is 1 1/2 month old. He has put on weight and I am witnessing the greatness of God's love from seeing him grow.. as my SON.

A new chapter has begun. A little bundle of joy... I am indeed BLESSED.....