I am reminiscing right now, the times when I was in my old office, and how perhaps, I have taken granted of my life there, the faces there, the stories there….I missed being apart of that, apart of a bigger group, a bigger organization… a bigger Family.
It’s odd that although I am no longer sitting there, the sense of familiarity is so overwhelming, that each return brings back lots of memories, and lots of emotion. Someone just told me, I am like a rainbow that they missed. Am I? :)
These are the faces who decorated my professional life for the last 9 years, and pretty much, have grown into a big part of me. These are the people that I cared for, and will always do. I may be foolish, as I may not be seen the way I wanted to, but this is not a trade, and I don’t need an affirmation. When I give, it’s with all that I have, and I treasure & nurture each one of these relationships, amidst all kinds of weather, in good and in bad, for both the journey and the destination.
If I could paint, I would paint a picture of these faces, in all kinds of colours. And what I hope is to bring a blend of harmony in them, and with it, the strength would penetrate deeply into the soul of the painting. It would be a remarkable gift. I am no Picasso, but if I could, God knows, I would. But again, wouldn’t that be dull? When something is so blended together, almost like the americanised melting pot, won’t that erase personalities, and create a kingdom where there could be no creativity, no excitement and no new discovery? And what is left to life, when these elements are absent? It would be plain, just a plain and a dull journey. Even thinking about it brings unexplainable pain to the mind, how can one live life where everything becomes so predictable, where every part of the world, is in the same colour, and people exist in uniformity of all senses.
Having said that, to what extent can we tolerate a person’s weakness and accept it as a common psychology impurity that is crucial to the overall development of one’s mind & soul? Interestingly, no one can work on perfection, as there is no room for improvement, and therefore, making every weakness, a desired opportunity, an important value to bring our steps higher if not better. But what if no one realizes this potential, and excuse it as a mere disorder of the mind?
It’s interesting that people are afraid of getting a fever. I, for one, freaks out whensoever , my two little angels caught the flu bug, tell me about it.. I’ve got like bottles of medicine, sitting at home, from fever to cough mixture, and from antibiotics to all kinds of allergy remedies. Then I thought, how many among us, realize it that, fever is a natural reaction towards an infection. It’s the way our body tells us that we are in biological danger and it’s the way, our body is telling us, to step up and do something about it! And if so, can every weakness be labeled the same? One may wonder?
This ship has since sailed on, moving towards a different journey and heading on another destination. And although, the trip looks promising and predictable, how can we say, it is when we hardly know, what’s in store for us tomorrow.
2011, will you be kinder to us?
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