Between Fun & Responsibility

Someone was telling me that I ought to just stay in a bottle and close my lid for good, as my life deprived the magic word, spelled as FUN.

Honestly, he has a point, and although I hate admitting it, I won’t be denying it.

It’s probably a direct case of “upbringing”, myself, and the six colors of my rainbows, were not raised on silver spoon, and responsibility was probably the first word we had to memorised! And although, early choices was lacking in our lives, thanks to how we were built, internally, we are in our comfortable places of having a “say” in the many choices ahead of us, now. And as the Lord, continues to bless us with his kindness, and test our weaknesses, I sincerely hope, we will remain strong in our stand of being just who we are and what we are made of.

Having fun, to me is something that is so “foreign”. Its something that I could not experience truly, as I don’t regard it as a necessity in my life. I have got a million things to deal with, and although worries suck up the blood sooner than age, its not something that I could go without. Every single day, I plan. Planning is the key word that has taken the word fun completely out of my dictionary. To me, everything then, was how to become who I am now, and to me at present, is to plan on how to raise my two little angels and how to provide them with the best I could.

If you ask me, would I regret that I treat “fun” like a total stranger and would I look back, with regrets that I’ve never welcome it home, the answer would be a straight no. Sometimes, a decision may not come voluntarily, as it might be the best thing to do in certain scenarios, but as I embraced the role of a daughter, wife and mother, I accepted my fate of letting it go, for good.

No one can have it all, sacrifices are needed to pave way for other things that could be or not be, better, depending on how you see it, weigh it, and relates it to your priority lists. But right now, I am the most content person in the world, with my cup half full, but never half empty!